Last week I started getting an itch in my fingers, and sat down at the piano to see what would happen. At first, it wasn't much. Maybe a measure or two, and I'd give up and walk away in disgust...then come back a little later and tentatively try again...and again...
It's still not much. Not really. But the feeling of creating music is so addicting. It's never the same song twice, and I never know what's going to happen when I sit down- one note leads to the next, one chord bleeds to another, and suddenly it's happening.
I've NEVER made music before. I cheated in piano lessons- when the book gave me half a song, and I was supposed to write the other half....I'd just copy the first half, backwards. Tricky, no? As long as it ended with a V7 chord, followed by a I...it was good. I grew up listening to my mom sit down and play whatever flowed through her fingers, and I'm so grateful for that: to know that creating IS possible, it's not reserved for the elite and "other" people. (And Mom? I wish I could come sit in your primary, and listen to you play prelude every week!)
A month or two ago I dreamed the first lines of a song- lyrics AND melody. I've written it down, and tried SO hard to take it farther. Of course, with all that trying I failed miserably. I'm hoping that someday I'll be able to go back to that song and learn where it leads. It was so concrete in my dream, I keep looking around to see if it's something that already exists too. I'll keep recording little snippets of my music, and perhaps something memorable will come out and need to be written down. But for now, I'll just enjoy creating.
Whew. That was all kind of heavy, wasn't it? I was thinking hard about this stuff on my run tonight...I totally missed the turn for MY STREET. Kind of embarrassing to turn around, you know? One good thing about running at night is there aren't TOO many people to see me puffing around the neighborhood...and missing my streets...
Oh and...yes. I taped this in a stolen moment while the girls were brushing their teeth. And they finished, as you will plainly hear :)
Also, this is the first time, really anyone but my girls (and Wonder Daddy, just yesterday) has heard my music. He heard me messing around and was surprised I'd managed to memorize a piece that he'd never heard before. So I guess it SOUNDS like "real" music :D
Enjoy! (Check out my "music" tab for other videos, if you're looking for more.)